You cannot test God. You don't say things like, "if you don't help me...." That's testing God. It's not by God that you struggle. Bad choices, bad decisions is of our own doing.
We have to learn our way out of bad decision/choices and sinful habits. And its a difficult thing to go through......when you're at your lowest point in life and seems you just can't take it no more. The negatives always outweight the positives in all that you do. It feel like you're born to suffer or meant to suffer.
How do we, then, live day to day, hour to hour, minute by minute? That's the challenge of Faith, Prayers and Believing. It is no easy task like the preachers make it out to be.
Struggle and hardships is as constant as racism in America. It will never change since Adam and Eve ate the forbidden fruit. So instead of crying out to God over things you "can" control, get to know the Bible in order to know God enough to know how you should live.
It's easy to be in-tune with God when we need Him but are quick to go astray once we get what we want. Therein lies our problem. We fall down again and keep crying to God instead of leaning to strengthen ourselves so we don't fall down so easy.
The best way to get to know God is by the quality of our punishment. For the lesson is always two-fold: it reveals your flaw/sin and, what God expect of us to be in His grace. So, bless is the man chastised by God for he shall know the way he must go.
Bless is the man that endures long suffering for his humbleness should keep him grounded and close to God. And blessed is the chastised and humbled man for God shall hear his prayers and strengthens his faith.
